I woke up this morning. I thought for a moment. I searched some nearby hotels in the Blue Mountains, a city adjacent to Sydney. I made a decision to explore a place known by me, next to our emerald city, a train ride away.
I booked with little reasoning.
I now sit on the train toward the west. A two hour ride into the known lands of wilderness unknown. Time to explore again.
Today, for Sunday Stills, the theme is: The Elements of earth, wind, water and fire…….I wanted to find a photo with all of them, not an easy task! I scoured my collection of a bazillion photos! Ha ha! I found this photo that I took of another ship, the Crown Princess, that was anchored off […]
Many know I’m writing a book about the recovery from an accident where I fell 15 metres off a building in 2014. It was no easy journey. Neither is the completion of a perfectly packaged book for a publisher to support printing and distributing the work.
Recently, I employed a professional editor to review a chapter and a half. She gave me a few pointers I will incorporate and felt I could revisit the story in a more logical professional manner – in a way separating myself to become the reader a little more.
So I am working on a memoir exercise book, gradually piecing the story back together, by pulling it apart.
The difficulty with the story is how it was not written as a recollection. I did not decide to tell my story after recovery in a thoughtfully clear moment.
It was written during the events occurring. For this reason it inhabits the mind and embodies the voice of a person suffering from Brain Injury, of me suffering from Brain Injury. I am trying not to lose that voice to who I am today. I didn’t write the book. Paul from 2014 after falling 15 metres off a building wrote the start of the book. That is the person I want to convey as the storyteller to future readers.
This week I looked at the theme of the story.
Here is a list of words I made that embody the story’s theme;
The exercise book had accomplishment, disappointment, victory, fear and gratitude as words to encapsulate the story I wish to tell. I felt ‘accomplishment’ was a word closest to the heart of the story. All the hard work I’d done paid off in the end. That is an amazing achievement when I read or recollect the worst stages of recovery.
I could combat struggle through confidence and strength. Strength in what I wanted in the end had to be overarching to influence me at the darkest times. Comparison and judgement were detrimental from an internal or external perspective. I had to follow my interests and passions to get through it. I learnt the value in focused listening to my needs for the first time in my life because if I didn’t, then I wouldn’t be here today.
That’s a little summary of this week. It is good to lay out the story. Within time (7 more years maybe, who knows), I will get that publisher and review/edit the over 250 pages again 🙂
On the day I got the call from police my wife had been in an accident and was unresponsive was without doubt one of the scariest moments of my life. Rushing to the hospital not knowing of she was even alive was excruciating. Seeing her for the first time in the ER, before she was brought up to the room I would become very familiar with, was heartbreaking. I cried for some time before realizing a doctor was even taking to me. Once she was set up in a trauma room in the wing of the hospital where they handled cases like hers I cried seeing her again hooked up to so many machines, all making noise and not knowing what they did. It took a few days before I could look at her without crying, thinking I might never get to hold her again or see her smile anymore…
Another day, another time, I would have been all over the story of what has been happening in Myanmar (aka Burma) over the past several months (decades). It is important. It is a matter of human lives. Instead, I have focused on the political corruption, the racism, the horrific gun problem, and other issues that […]
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Reporting live into Paul’s 3 week so far extra healthy kick in the butt to his habits.
A few weeks ago I looked at a photo and realised how all the years of hard work I’d put into exercise and starting a great new job were not obvious from my unhealthy look.
The photo below is 3 weeks later 😛
I hadn’t realised the pressure I created with the continuous misuse of alcohol or unhealthy eating habits to my health. In recovery after my accident it was an entire push forward and a search for growth toward a finish line. Unhealthy food or alcohol were supporters along that journey.
I had reached the finish line, healed from Brain Injury and physical restrictions and here I was reinstating survival habits, during and after recovery. These were the overeating and the turn to alcohol as a comforter.
I realised my biggest obstacle was no longer to find a job (I went through years of hell in workplaces with less than intelligent or accommodating people/managers – explained in this post).
My obstacle had now become the same things that saved me during my worst days. A block of chocolate here or a sip of wine there (ok a bottle of wine there).
I wrote this post to make people think about the two factors that can make recovery from an accident difficult. This whether you are going through it or supporting someone in it.
Overcoming the immediate challenges and then
Overcoming the lasting habits we create to support the hurdles over these challenges
Try to think of how you replace things with habits. Personally I badly used food and alcohol. This relates to another post I wrote about the role of exercise in my recovery.
All I can say is that we shouldn’t downgrade one achievement through the negative impact of a habit. Kick those habits away slowly, bit by bit. It’s a process and we should accept that eating a pizza today doesn’t mean you never eat pizza tomorrow. Cut down the amount you eat or drink alcohol, bit by bit, little by little and success is there in each decision you make for a healthy you ❤